Well we've all got to start somewhere and I shall start my tale here. It's a cold snowy day today and my toes are feeling the cold. Up nice and early to take the wife to the train station. A normal 10 minute drive took the best part of 30 minutes as we struggled through traffic and the snow. She is going to the 30 Seconds to Mars concert at the O2 Arena in London. Hope she doesn't freeze.
Mentally I am not too bad today. Could be described as halfway up the stairs as I am neither up nor down. Had a bad attack of the cluster headaches this AM but took co-codamol to relieve it. I am attempting through this blog to try and detail thoughts that I just bottle up to see if it can improve my mental state. Hate being myself some days as I can be an absolute pain in the arse. Sometimes I sit and wonder why Heather is still with me. I am not the easiest to live with and she has been so bubbly and outgoing whilst I shrink more and more into myself. I sometimes try to communicate with her as to how I feel but it just never comes out. I find it easier to bottle it up than to blub out my feeling and thoughts as I am sure some of them would shock her.
